Bophana, A Crushed Flower
Bophana is 25 when she is executed by the Khmer Rouge. Her body is thrown into the mass grave of Choeung Ek on March 18, 1977. On the same day her husband Ly Sitha is killed as well. During the five months of torture before her death, she writes thousands of pages of confessions. She tells how her father, a teacher and district chief, was killed in a Khmer Rouge ambush, and how she had to flee her home and take refuge with her two sisters in Kompong Thom.
There, soldiers of the Lon Nol regime throw a grenade at her place, accusing her of being a Khmer Rouge infiltrator. She is raped and becomes pregnant, attempts suicide but is saved by doctors. In 1971, Bophana moves to Phnom Penh with her sisters and gives birth to a boy. As a single mother with no husband, she is rejected by society. Daily life is tough for a girl named after a flower. In 1974, whilst attending a Buddhist ceremony, she enjoys ephemeral happiness when she meets her cousin Sitha, now a monk. They grew up together and she deeply loves him.
“My friends tell me that the old people sent me to rebuild the dykes because they do not want my skin to remain white.”
Once the Khmer Rouge take over Phnom Penh, Bophana is back to her hometown where she is nicknamed Môm. Meanwhile Sitha, also known as Deth, has become a top official of the Communist Party of Kampuchea, and finds Bophana again. They marry in 1975. However, in Democratic Kampuchea, family, love, and personal life are banned; and therefore the long love letters Bophana writes to Sitha are a patent infringement of the law. They also reflect the paranoia of the regime and the deterioration of the situation for the lovers. In her letters Bophana embodies herself in Seda, the princess of the famous epic poem Reamker. Confined and loyal to her husband, Seda waits for him to deliver her.
While working to the point of exhaustion for the revolution, Bophana writes to her husband: “They also say that Seda was a “whore” in Phnom Penh. […] O darling! Seda suffers greatly from all the slander, and it makes her cry. My friends tell me that the old people sent me to rebuild the dykes because they do not want my skin to remain white; you must use me. […] Seda understands that you are very busy with Angkar. But Seda loses a year of her lifetime for each day lived in Barai.”
“One day I will be the victim of our enemy here.”
Bophana, then, falls ill. She receives poor treatment, tries to commit suicide and loses the baby she was expecting from Sitha. He suffers as much as she does. He calls her “his sad wife”. “Only if I become a ghost, then you can do whatever you want! I know your tears too well, and you know the burning burden of my life. Beloved Seda! Believe in my love, my darling,” he answers before quoting Macbeth or Paul and Virginia.
Later Bophana writes again: “One day I will be the victim of our enemy here. Do you know, darling, that the people living in Barai are all afraid of me… My close friends do not dare to talk to me as they did before. I have no more hope, I cannot change the course of destiny to meet you, because life has a purpose and when you get to the end, you must know how to stop this life. I hold you against me and send you a kiss… From your heart-broken suffering wife… Sedadeth”.
When the regime decides to purge senior officials, Sitha is arrested. The Khmer Rouge find at his place Bophana’s letters as well as a forged pass. At S21, Bophana, who has been arrested in the meantime, admits to be a CIA agent. But on each page of her confession she signs Sedadeth in Latin letters, which stands for “Seda of Deth”, the sign of her unfailing love, her last breath and her ultimate act of resistance.